Look Right Through Me

Have a great Independence Day!!

I just logged onto to Livejournal for the first time in I don't know how long. Everyone's babies are growing so fast and so beautiful! As is Madeline.

I miss you ladies and sharing stories with you all. Finding out who I am and what my life is now is what consumes me. I am more driven torwards making myself proud of myself, than I have ever been before. Life is good to me right now.

You're all in my thoughts and it brought a smile to my face tonight to look at all of your faces.

♥

Especially Nic and Mandy (since our daughters are so close in age) ** How are they with potty training? Are they still in pull ups during the day?

Maddie does so well at her daycare. She is dry all day, and goes to the bathroom every time she is asked to. But, at home, she will NOT go on the potty. She doesn't tell us when she has to go and when we ask her to go, she REFUSES.

I am so god damned frustrated.

Mothers of two, or more.

How do you do it???????


I've been reading but haven't had a moment to update....hopefully I can get to that tonight.

And The Show Has Just Begun....

The Queen, on her Confessions Tour:







I just got home from Boston. Amber and I went and had a blast hanging in the city before the concert. I LOVE Beantown.

Sleepy time....

The first time Tyler kissed me we were at a 4th of July party together. Aw.

We have been trying to relax and stay in the air conditioning of our homes, or the mall, because poor Madds has a bronchitis thing going on, which caused her to have an asthma attack Saturday afternoon. We were at my mom's house for a BBQ and she was coughing/crying non-stop. Weezing and telling me that her "belly was hurting". I layed down with her and she fell asleep, but her breaths were still short and gaspy. I called her Ped's office and left a message for the on-call Dr. He called back, she was awake by then and her breathing had gotten shorter and she was crying harder. The Dr. told us to bring her to the Emergency Room.

I told her we were going to the Dr. so that she could feel better and she actually wanted to go. (she hates going to the dr.) She immediately grabbed my hand and said "bye everyone, going to the Dr."...

You know how emergency room visit's go. We registered her and she was seen by a nurse who admitted her. We waited in the waiting room for an hour and they called her in. Another nurse looked at her in the room, which was freezing cold and Maddie didn't like this at all. She would not sit with me on the bed. She started crying again, much harder this time, which made it almost impossible for her to breathe..... This was probably the most scared I've ever been in my life. She went back and forth from me and Tyler, trying to get comfortable. I could tell she was in pain and there was nothing I could do for her. Another hour later, the asswipe Dr. finally arrived (whom she hated) and listened to her lungs, told me they were clear and he couldn't tell if she was weezing because she was crying so hard, or if she was having an asthma attack. I told him it was obviously the latter and looked at me like I was a ridiculous mother. Then she vomited all over the place and I gave him the look of "do something about this now or I'll fucking kill you". He ordered her tylenol with codine and an x-ray. Things went rather quickly after that. She hated the x-rays. They came back fine. The tylenol kicked in and she was able to sleep for a good hour and a half. The Dr. came back in to check her while she was asleep and he got a good listen to her lungs. Her breaths were so short I wondered how she was sleeping and there was a deep weezing sound with every breath. He called for Respiratory to come down and give her a breathing treatment and a dose of a steroid. Both worked immediately. She woke up awhile later and was happy. She could breathe finally.

They released us after 6 hours and told us that she had an asthma attack. We were sent home with inhalers and a steroid prescription. Apparently they will not diagnose a child of her age with asthma, since so many outgrow it or only have a few episodes in their lives. I have never had asthma, nor has anyone I know. This is all new to me.

She is a happy girl now. The inhalers and the medication have stirred up the shit in her lungs and she has a nasty cough. But, she can breathe.

Arianna arrived Saturday evening after a long drive through Michigan and Canada, where she met Tyler at Niagara Falls and then continued driving down New York State and finally to Connecticut.

She is not *too much bigger than she was in December, she is still fiitting into the clothes I bought her last summer. But, she eats like a ravenous animal! I think she is about to have a growth spurt. Both her and Maddie are HUGE for their ages.

Maddie is thrilled to have her sister here. They are playing right now. I can't even describe the way my heart feels to hear them have conversations. They are talking! When they laugh together, it's the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. *SWOON*

Maddie isn't used to sharing her toys, so we're all working with her on taking turns. Arianna is so patient with her, though. She is SUPER protective. Yesterday, I was watching my friend's (extremely hyper) son and he wasn't minding Maddie who was playing nearby. Ari told him to "WATCH OUT" for Maddie and told him he had to help her get down from my bed! She instructed him on how to do it.

So, things are going very smoothly. Ari started Summer Camp today and it seemed like she had a great time. I could tell she was nervous when I dropped her off, and when I picked her up, she was hanging out with the counselor's. She said she didn't really make any friends. I'm sure it will take some time for her to get acquainted with the children around here.

*Blows you a kiss*

Rishta, Kristen, Julie ...

What happened??

:(